“For the Lord sees not as man sees:man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.” — 1 Samuel 16:8
To find an individual who conveys understanding, grace and acceptance, is to find one who has no doubt been touched in the deepest core of his or her being with grace — the quality of which they are able to show to others. (2 Corinthians 1:4)
But then there are those in life, perhaps once close or close enough to at least “think” they know our true heart, who then use this “knowledge at a distance” to erase the good and retain only an evil in their minds, tempting them to act out against us as though we truly are the thuggish characters drawn in their omniscient imaginations.
Like a foretaste of hell itself, we repeatedly stand in the court of their minds, where jury, prosecution witnesses and sentencing judge all look forebodingly upon us, with darkened and even furious brow. There we wait…there we are left to rot in the trappings of our worthlessness, with no opportunity for recovery and no leeway to change or morph into something or someone better.
You are who you are…at least in the terrifying court-room of their minds.
Still they read our heart. Still they know we’re just not good enough. Still they know we never will be. Though we seek to rise, to perform to their exacting standards, like a rising high-jump bar, the expectation of performance just keeps getting higher and higher.
It is at such a moment of horrendous realization, that we perceive in the corner of our mind’s eye, our beloved Advocate — one whom when He beholds our limping frame urges that “with boldness we come before Him” where we see in the shadows His cross, His blood, His victory and the words “it is finished”
“But if anyone does sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous. He is the propitiation for our sins, and not for ours only but also for the sins of the whole world.” — 1Jn. 1:1-2